I took time off to digest everything that was going on, I was overwhelmed and disappointed by everything and everyone. I wanted to dissappear and start over somewhere I’m not known.
Not happening in this lifetime…
Having obsessive-compulsive behaviour, losing control of your your life is the worst thing that could ever happen, I was depressed and saw no way out except leaving this world.
I’m still here…
I lost control and was dissapointed, but I gained depth of my faith. Things I know were supposed to break me, didn’t instead, when everything was falling apart I was praying. After prayer I’d say, “if it is your will Lord, let it be done, there is a greater purpose for the pain”. I never thought I’d say that, but I did, and I’ve accepted that’s how things are and I have no control over anything or anyone.
Greatest lesson from everything in life, pray about anything and everything. I’m recovering by using that, things no longer affect me the way they used to. I’m handing in to God and building a deeper relationship with him.
I will continue praying, letting go and letting God ✝️ ❤️
“Don’t worry about anything, but in all your prayers ask God for what you need, always asking him with a thankful heart. And God’s peace, which is far beyond human understanding, will keep your hearts and minds safe in union with Christ Jesus.” ~ Philippians 4:6-7 GNB